Adventures of a Wayfarer

I’ve never actually made new years resolutions. I’ve always hated them mostly because if I go forth and make one and say it out loud, then if I don’t reach said goal I will be disappointing myself and others. I hate being a disappointment. Thus I steer clear of making any type of resolutions.
That being said, it’s a new year and I’m making changes in my life. I have had a lot of disappointments in my past and am ready for a change. With my less than recent move to my new city and new step in my life, I have come to realize I have a lot of things I want to do with my life. This year is my year to accomplish things for myself. I’ve officially given up the whole “relationship” aspect to which everyone I know is in a loving happy relationship that until now, I have envied. I realize now that I don’t envy their relationship, I envy the things they do. Therefore, who needs someone else to do these things? I certainly don’t. I’m a strong independent 25-year-old woman and I plan on making the most of my life.

I have set two goals for myself this year. The first dealing with my new-found love of yoga. I was involved in karate for 8 years of my life, became a first degree black belt assistant instructor. I was strong and well-balanced. It was the best year of my life. However, I’ve let that strength go over my college years. I’ve become lazy in my mind. So with the new year, I want to dedicate my free time to yoga. I’ve been doing it now and again, but this year I want it to become a part of my life. My goal is to be able to be able to do the balancing poses because I have been terrible with balance lately.
The second goal I set for myself is to explore. I don’t need someone to take me places, I need to go there myself. If I want to do something, I am going to do it and not wait around for others to accompany me. Lately I have been let down by people who claim to be my friends, I ask them to do things, explore, adventure, but they find excuses and end up with their significant others. I am left in the spot I started, alone. Which is a fine place to be, because in my opinion being able to do something on your own is the first step in trusting yourself, loving yourself. If you can’t love who you are then how is someone else suppose to love you?

So I have made two new years resolutions, and decided this is the best place to solidify these “goals.” I don’t actually have to say them out loud, but they are out there for others to know and for me to have a motivation to keep up. Perhaps from time to time I will post a picture of a new pose or a place I explore. It seems appropriate for a rambling to become something more than just a thought.

With that, this rambling of a Ras has come to a close. Happy New Year. What will you do with this fresh start in the new year? What memories will you create? What life will you choose to live?